Life marches on...

The past month has been crazy.  I took a couple days off the beginning of March to process life.  A co-worker left our office the following week and my workload grew substantially. We got to spend an evening with some new friends and another evening with the brother and sister-in-law and sweet niece. I got to staff a Crop For A Cure and make a few cards the middle of the month, I think this is exactly what I needed, a day of doing something I loved. I was constantly surprised by the things that made us happy for an instant, most of them were things I didn't even know I needed...like people ordering meals, flowers filled with butterflies, nights with other people, etc.
Right after my Crop For A Cure event I traveled to Spokane, WA to complete my practicum for my Master's degree.  I am really not the type of person who is ever homesick.  This trip was one of the hardest I have ever gone on.  I didn't want to leave the dear husband, not for one day, let alone 4-5 days. Fortunately, the practicum kept me so busy that I didn't have a moment to text or even think about anything.  I did pretty good until I heard a speech on adoption and the professor leading the class was giving feedback to the speaker.  He suggested she makes some points on who might be interested in adoption and suggested those having difficulty with fertility.  I had teared up before, but this forced me to stand up, leave the room, bawl my eyes out, pull my self back together, and come back a few minutes later.  I was able to quickly compose myself, but it was a reminder that I still grieve. I was so happy to fly home to my dear husband.  An added bonus was my friend T was in town! She came to do some wedding shopping and I got to throw her a bridal shower. The dear hubby woke up sick that Saturday morning.  He was so miserable!  I felt so bad for him.
The bridal shower was fantastic! I hosted it at a little tea house nearby. We got to dress up, drink tea, enjoy scone and finger sandwiches.  We also got to catch up with friends we hadn't seen in years! We had such an enjoyable time!  I even got to go hot tubbing while she was in town.
Last week I worked four nights in a row and Saturday.  In the middle of my practicum my computer died, so the hubby and I spent one evening searching for a laptop. When we found the perfect one it wasn't available.  We also went to purchase a home gym, when we got there the price had changed. With absolutely no shopping luck, we went home.  On Saturday we celebrated my mother-in-law's birthday at Olive Garden. Later, I competed in a chili cookoff for work.  I didn't win, but got tons of compliments and people asking if they could pay me to make the chili for them! That's pretty cool.  Saturday evening we had company over and played games. On Sunday I got to meet my friend S for lunch at an Indian food place.  The food was better than the other Indian place near by, but not nearly as good as what I had with my sister in Fargo, ND! The best part was getting to hang out with S! After lunch I went to my matron-of-honor dress fitting at David's Bridal where they temporarily lost my shoes.  Fortunately, they found my shoes and I didn't  need a single alteration on my dress.  Sunday afternoon I worked on my thesis.  I woke up on Monday, called in to work to say I wouldn't be there on account of I needed to use my flex time, and spent 12 hours working on my thesis.  My brain was so fried by the time I went to bed last night! The good news is I am back on track with my thesis! I had gotten behind with all the chaos this month, but am back on schedule.  My advisor encouraged me to take a break and finish in the fall, but some how I felt like that was defeat.  I refused to let the goings on in life defeat me.  I didn't have any idea how strong I could be until this month and I was darned if I was going to get this far to surrender on graduating in July!  So, I have submitted my work.  Hopefully, they accept my work with minimal changes.  I am helping staff an event this week and fly to Seattle on Friday.  I come back Sunday afternoon.  I am not as apprehensive about this trip.  I love traveling to Seattle and am excited to work there for a few days.  Honestly, I am also excited for April. April has to get better than March.  I come back to staffing an event for a few hundred people, but am looking forward to a hopefully more relaxing month. 

Miscarriage

Shortly after finding out we were expecting a series of blood tests indicated I was having a miscarriage.  I was amazed at how quickly the few symptoms of pregnancy I had went away.  We have grieved and continue to grieve.  We have no idea what life has in store for us next.  I do know that God must have some amazing plan for us, it's hard to possibly imagine what that plan could be, but I'm confident that it's His plan.  We have been touched by the amount of love and support our family and friends have shown us.  Thanks for your love, support, and care.