Call me crazy...

Let's rewind a few years...I have thought about being a teacher for several years.  I chose not to when I went to college because my parents were teachers. I didn't want to hear, "Oh, just like your parents."  I wanted to make something out of me, for me, unattached to anyone else I know.  So, I went through college.  I loved learning about communication, mostly because we got up in front of class and gave informative speeches.  Ever since graduating from college I have gone back to this website for earning a post-bac teacher licensure.  I literally go back once every three months and re-read the entire website.  I have not really mentioned this fact to anyone.  Partially, because I think I might be crazy to consider going back to school full time...8-5 Monday-Friday in a classroom.  After all, we have a house and God willing would like to start a family.  The timing of it all just isn't perfect, but I am not sure if and when it ever will be.  In fact, my fear is if I don't pursue it now, it will be one of those things I always wondered "what if?"

I think I would be a good teacher for several reasons.  I like kids, a lot.  I enjoy being creative. Hence my cards.  I like making a difference.  A teacher has a schedule of when to be at school and when to go home.  I understand there is homework at night, I even helped my mom do grading when I lived at home.  I have been a substitute teacher and I enjoyed it.  In fact, I worked in the special education classroom.  I have also been a Sunday School teacher and Girl Scout Leader.  I appreciate being able to help others learn and see more of the world. 

I guess I just worry that what if I do this and then decide I really was crazy?  I suppose this fear is based on what others will say.  I know I will always be able to find a job, but I don't just want to find a job, I want to be really happy.  Going through the job search now, I feel like I have really limited my options because I know what I like to do and what I don't like to do.  I am young and think this is the time in my life I should make these decisions.  The program is a one year program.  When completed I would also have a partial MA in education.  I would only be 5 classes short, I'd have 5 years to complete those, of having another MA.

This has really been weighing on my heart and I haven't told very many people.  It would mean big changes as far as leaving work to attend school full time for a year and then going back through the process of finding a job.  Sure, the pay is not amazing, but let's be serious for a moment, all my work experience is in the non-profit field.  As a volunteer coordinator there is not a lot more for me to make.  It would be comparable to teaching, without an MA. I am of the thinking if there is a will there is a way.  I have until December to get my application materials in. A lot could happen in that time, plus I always have the option of being accepted and changing my mind.  I am not sure why this is even a debate for me.  I guess I worry to much about what other people will think and spending a year on a slim budget.  I would probably try to pick up a part time job in that time to supplement financial aid.  Anyway, that's what's on my heart...